Annoyed

My dad has a particularly secretive sister sending secret messages that influence your thoughts, like @ people with advantages like her.

I'm not really fat.

I just have stress fat because of my dad.  Ew.  I have a mom.

TV

I was watching ghost stories.  Now, they're talking with kids.  Tim Burton used to be into like haunted theaters I think.. or maybe I was just thinking he knew what I watched.  :)  Then, it stopped bc of the N word thing with Nell.  :(

I'm restarting my computer.

I just cleaned the betta tank.  I worry it might fall out when I pour it out and how to catch it then.  I mean, what if I got clumsy.  I need a net.  My dad thinks it hurts them, but if it falls I'll just be scooping it up up in here.

I want a rodent with a tail now, too, guess I have to clear off another table for a 2nd computer and the rodent.  I'm also looking for a wig and shaving my hair to nurture it to be naturally lighter.  You know, the dark blonde shampoo, the citris 1, lying in the tub a lot cuz it probably helps it seems, going out in the sun.  I'm so excited!  I'll wear the wig when I go out unless it's a walk outside..

hey

ellen i just watched yer sho' n i rilly liked it  8I

So, that last guy I remember was neat.  I liked you in the band.  My dad was in a band.  I wasn't.  I started out I guess like my mom in gymnastics.  I was with her a lot and wanted to be like her but with European traits but guess that didn't work out.  I liked my dad's wisdom so much, like I could never do it.  I was with him quite a lot..  It wasn't like we were close, though..  I was supposed to go out into the world!  Anyway, yea good stuff.  I feel affected from my m***********.  Tim Burton only tries to help but feels pressured by the world.  I want him back as the artist from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  I know you feel pressured, but he's not really as famous, in a way.  Oh well, isn't everyone?  Hm..  I was, too.  So, yea, those ppl r cool.  The German Jew boy was so cute and nice and funny.  We have lost heritage.  You know it's too bad I felt upset recently.  I had a thing where I do react and like am clumsy automatically and so I hit my chair on the floor, hit the desk.  I'm not supposed to do that.  It happens.  I dunno what to do @ my failed past.  I mean, just look @, it's hard to find someone who's perfect.

Mm..

I was touchy @ my dad, and now he seems more m*****ative..if you're American and know what that even means maybe.  Ugh!  I am tired!  You know what I mean..  Like, there are good ways to feel @ people and there may be bad ways.  So, why is Ellen the Southern 1, now?  My cousin is the youngest forever.

So..

I says to my mom.. does Dad just want *** from us?

Also

Yea, he was a bit nasty to me, and it's making me feel kinda distorted physically.

Well

I sat through dinner with my dad.  I told him stuff and ended up saying k*** just as a joke for something I didn't mean but forget at times.

I have no idea how I could meet Ellen DeGeneres, like if I did something like talk on her show, nor how anyone could stand it.  I hope I get in Finding Dory.